Mental Endurance

One month had passed since I was retrenched from work. To be honest, it caught me off guard, I was not prepared for this to happen. Knowing I have obligations to pay from my creditors, I was left hanging and confused about where to go. I am really anxious and frustrated at the same time. At the age of 28, I have no stable source of income, no insurance, and no savings. Needless to say, I am the eldest among five siblings so what does it mean? I must be their role model in terms of professional achievement. To add, it gives me a lot of pressure since I am the most well-invested child of all. They send me to the best possible nursing school nearby, they spend plenty of money yet it seems that I disappoint them. I know they were hurt and I am hurt too. Seeing them every day tired and exhausted, I am so embarrassed.

What to do? Where to go? What are the things that needed to be done to suffice these shortcomings? From myself and family.

Lord, hear me out. To be honest with you I am so drained right now, I do not want to question you, but Lord God I need your help, please give me work that I deserved. You are my savior, please father give me a chance one more time and I promise to bring honor and praises to your holy name.

I am planning to give the first 10% immediately to church as my offering. I pledge it as a sign of gratitude and to follow God’s will. I promise that I will live with joy and delight so that I can glorify your holy name.